Graham Crackers With God


Nearly a couple hours had passed. Frustratingly, sleep refused to come. Lying in the dark, dim lighting from outside seeping into my room, I pondered the possible reasons.

Did I have caffeine?

Did I eat too much? Too little?

Was it not shutting off my ipad within a reasonable time before bed?

I prayed for my family, friends and country, my mind slipping here and there, a sense of anxiousness in my belly. Why? This isn’t like me to feel this way. I talked with God.

Did He want me to get up?  Spend some time with Him?

2 I slept but my heart was awake.
Listen! My beloved is knocking:
“Open to me, my sister, my darling,
my dove, my flawless one…


3 I have taken off my robe—
must I put it on again?
I have washed my feet—
must I soil them again?

Song of Songs 5:2-3

It’s warm in bed. Maybe a few more minutes will bring the sleep I crave.


A still, small voice: “Graham crackers and milk? You enjoy that with your boys…”

Hmm… milk might help me sleep. I relish the visions of times past, sharing graham crackers and milk with my boys… graham crackers with God? OK. I’ll get up.

astronomy beautiful clouds constellation
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Peering out to the west, small globes of hazy farm and porch lights glow through the chilly fog outside. Quietly, I sneak to the kitchen, search for the crackers, and pour a small glass of milk. Dip, 1… 2… 3… into the mouth. Mmmm. Yes, that’s good.

Drawn to view the foggy atmosphere again, I find my way to the ceiling-high west-facing windows. Gazing at the mysterious darkness, thinking that I am alone, I know in my heart that I am not alone. My Lord is with me. He wanted to spend time with me.

Does the east-facing front window have the same view? Is the sidewalk wet from the mist? I need to check it out. Flipping a switch on the wall, the exterior garage light comes on. Wrong one. Tap off, flip the next one on, and the porch light shines forth. Approaching the window, I am shocked to see a four-by-four buck a couple yards away happily nibbling at my Autumn Stonecrop Sedum – yep, the one that I had previously noticed with its flowers all neatly cropped off. I couldn’t believe the majestic boy hadn’t spooked and run off at the lights going on and off!

brown and white deer on the green mountain during daytime

I studied him for several minutes, wondering how long he’d stay, how often had he come. There was a doe a few yards away from him, barely visible in the dark. He finally sauntered off, his doe following, and then two more ambled by. Wow!

I know. Is this really a big deal? Deer are common here, but they are still beautiful and marvelous to watch – so quiet and graceful – up-close through the front window. Yes, it’s a big deal. Especially when God Himself won’t allow you sleep so that He can have the opportunity to be with you one-on-one.

I finish my graham crackers and milk, marveling at His goodness, His kindness, His gentleness, His desire to be with me. We visit. I read His word. My eyes get heavy. Quietly slipping back into bed, I sleep.

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Matthew 11:28-30



  1. So beautifully written my friend! Also such a good reminder of how important our time with God is and that He loves it just as much as we do! Thank you for writing this!

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